Friday, February 1, 2008

My son will be the death of me

How can you tell my hubby is away hu??

so the saga continues, J pops in for a visit.....here for 1/2 an hour humm didn't ask for money yet. I really don't mind giving him some if he doesn't ask...so I hand him $20.

Then about 20 min later he begins to tell me he owes somone money and if he doesn't pay them back he is in big trouble. I guess this was when he bought the car.

What do I do? I don't want to see him hurt, Yet part of me feels he needs to be responsible for his actions....I hand him over $500.00.....oh this is $660.00 now. And he goes off on his merry way.
I am so torn, is he scamming his mom, is he being hounest.....has he learned now? Or is he the black sheep of the family? I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't pay me back next week when he gets paid like he promissed? I'm his mom it's my job to love him, but if he lies to me I just can't do this over and over, I don't think I'll be doing him any favors.
funny you look at him and he is sweet looking, clean cut, dressed well and reminds me of the perfect con artist.
I want my baby, my little boy back again....man what could i have done different to have made him different?
Hubby's mad I helped him out.
I'm a mom, his mom, would mine have done anything different? I don't know.
I took T to the doctor...looks like he blew an ear drum.He'll be o.k.
After seeing J, I felt really sick and dizzy again from the concussion. I feel worse after stress and if I am tired. The doctor took some tests and was worried, I haveto go for a C.T scan. GREAT.
If there are prayers out there, don't pray for me, please say one for my boy to get his shit together.

1 comment:

Mighty Morphin' Mama said...

Honey, you know I am praying for you guys. I wish I had something to say that was helpful. I am here to listen.