I have been seeing a wonderful MT who also has a holistic approach on life and healing. Many things she has told me makes so much sense, but what I need to do seems far off and not what I feel I need.
I am not sure why I feel I need to have the approval of certain people in my life, why I seek appreciation, approval & kudos.
Time will heal old wounds and I need to make sure I give myself to my family in a way that makes them strong yet without making me weak.
Live in the present I am told, that is a hard one...so many things in my life reflect from the past.
I have been also told that as my body is healing I will feel worse, physically, emotionally. It is so hard to just let go but to get better I have to.
Yesterday was my birthday, it was a lot less stressfull then I thought. It didn't bother me like turning 37 did ....not much as changed in a year, still wearing the same clothing unfortunately, don't think I look too much different.
Facebook has been fun, so many well wishes and calls from my friends made my day! As for family...hubbys family took the time to drop a note or call :) then there is my side....2 out of 4 not bad I guess. My dad didn't bother, I try to shake it off and pretend it doesn't matter, and my ungrateful spawn didn't call. I am holding my tongue because I am supposed to be the adult...ah the hell with it...f@#ken ungrateful little shit!
k done. Getting a stomach ache now :(
Life goes on and so will i
Love all my friends and family who took the time and cared to do so!