Monday, April 28, 2008

I once was lost...

Not found yet but working on it.

I have been away from writting as so much has happened and seems so hard to keep on top of things.
A wonderful thing has happened,my son has moved back.
He has spoke about coming home for about a week, tired of living where he was and the kaos that lived there.
Everything came to a header when I received a phone call from the parent that owed the house. She informed me my son was in trouble and he was taken away in handcuffs.
By the end of the conversation she hung up on me. I guess she didn't like what I said to her and what i thought of her. I really don't know if he did what they accused him of, I so need to believe he didn't. There has been no more evidence, so no charges will be pressed. I pray he is telling us the truth.
My heart is still having issues, letting me get close to him, trying to be a mom.
Last night he came in about 1 am and started to talk to me. He had gone out after work and was happy from partying. I still can't wrap my head around my baby drinking, yet I was young too when my friends and I did it.
It is scary what are kids are faced with now. He spoke for some time telling me about drugs and what was out there. About the time someone slipped something in his drink and he was out for a full day.He seems so educated in the bad of the world and I am so iggnorant.
I totally understand one day all my children will move away, it just wasn't his time when he did.
Little sis is in heaven that her big brother is home. She can't wait till he's awake to go bug him.
Today what I saw brought a smile to my face as the sun was out and all my kids were outside playing in the yard. With them came their friends so how i missed that :)

Life has been so hectic these past few weeks, my cleaning of the basement has left me fustrated and overwhelmed more then once...where did I get soooo much crap!!! Hours and hours I have spent down in clutter hell. It will get done one day soon.
I miss my friends and know I need to step away from everything and do some catch up.

well that is all for writting is poor right now and I'm tired
good night


Mighty Morphin' Mama said...

Your friends miss you too! The snow is gone this week so we should get together.
I am so glad that your boy is home, he needs his mom still and now maybe your heart can start to heal.
Love you girl.

shay said...

I'm so glad he's home. You need much wisdom and patience! I pray that for you:)

Good luck with the decluttering - yikes!